In the Midst

Perfection. Ugh! I thought it was my goal for most of my life. Aren’t we raised to always do our best? In hindsight, I realize it was my enemy. I realize the anxiety it caused and the joy it stole. Controlling EVERYTHING was my method of achieving peace. It was so wrong. I wasn’t peaceful. […]

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33 1/3

It’s not a melody that soothes my soul.A chorus of four words.Repeating. Skip.Repeat. Skip.Repeat. The volume gets louder.The four words echo. Skip.Repeat. The acoustics are horrible.No softness to absorb the sound    That came from the speaker.The sound reverberates on calloused walls.Hardened.Unforgiving. Skip.Repeat. Skip.Repeat. The door did not slam.The needle did not scrape across the vinyl.The […]

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What Was She Thinking?

It’s been a while since I’ve written but I haven’t stopped thinking. I write all the time– in my mind. This week I have had increasingly more thoughts about my mom– not just because Mother’s Day is approaching. The week has been marked with several events that have prompted a convergence of thoughts. In my mind, the […]

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Better or Bitter

How you react to what life brings on is more important than what happens. Right? I’ve had about a week to reflect on the premature end of life with our student from Japan. She moved on to her third host family. Ideally, you only have one American family. I have been quiet for months as […]

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Twas the day before Easter

When my daughter was born, new policies were imparted to enable women to take six weeks of maternity leave. It may have been more like 12 weeks, I can’t recall the exact terms. I only recall our situation– my spouse was self-employed, I was our provider of health insurance, leave was paid in reduced wages, insurance coverage […]

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Returning to a family

Tonight my daughters sat on the bedroom floor having a heart to heart. They came together on their own accord so it was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. This image is an answer to a prayer I stopped praying years ago. Through this one unexpected addition to our family, our house […]

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Repair the Breach

Many kids in America returned to school yesterday after Christmas break. I was thinking of them on my way home from school and felt prompted to write a post to petition for prayers. During break many kids have been subjected to abuse or exposure to an environment of triggers without the sanctuary of their school. The stress […]

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