May 6, 2014
I wrote about the immensity of God over a lunch hour on this day.
“Nine years ago we had the opportunity to go on our first incentive trip with Stampin’ Up! We had never been on a cruise ship but I had seen them in the distance. As we approach our ship to board, I was blown away by the size! How in the world would such a massive vessel stay afloat?
We settled in and took time to get acquainted with our floating hotel. After dinner we walked around the top deck, enjoyed the starry sky, and retired for the night. I enjoyed being rocked to sleep with the gentle motion of the ship. We even opened the sliding door a bit to enjoy the sound of the water swishing underneath us.
The next morning I awoke and stepped onto the veranda. I could not believe what I saw… there was water as far as my eyes could see! Nothing but ocean!
It was at that moment I realized how big God is. On this enormous ocean with waters so deep and waves moving about, there I was—little me on this huge ship that looked like a wee toy on a ginormous body water. He created it all and yet, He cares for every tiny detail in the world simultaneously…. that is astounding!”
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July 23, 2014
I pulled into work. My radio was cranked with a Chris Tomlin song. I was worshipping an amazing God and stayed in my car until the song ended. All day the song was on my mind as I contemplated His immensity.
“Water you turned into wine, opened the eyes of the blind… there’s no one like you, none like You!”
At the end of that day, I pulled away from my office singing the same song with more zeal. I had been downsized along with 11 of my associates. I loved the job and the people but it consumed more time in my week than anything else. Perhaps it was a god. But… “Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other!”
July 24, 2014
The very next day I boarded an airplane with the same song on my heart.
“And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us. And if our God is with us, then what could stand against!”
I was headed to Proverbs 31 ministries for “She Speaks,” a women’s conference for Christian writers and speakers. As soon as I arrived, I walked into a worship service. The first song we sang was…
“Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!”
July 26, 2014
Three days of teaching, fellowship, networking, worship, rest, reflection.
Three days after my downsizing, I was renewed!
“Into the darkness you shine out of the ashes we rise there’s no one like you, none like You!”
January 7, 2016 | Today
I’ve been experiencing yet another three-day rebirthing.
Surrounded by the Spirit.
Astounded by interactions and appointments that can only be explained through faith in One True God. A superior life who alone can orchestrate finite details with perfection.
I learned at the end of the proverbial work day that another candidate was selected for the job I had been interviewing for. I was relieved.
“There’s a peace I’ve come to know, though my heart and flesh may fail
There’s an anchor for my soul. I can say. ‘It is well'”
My morning reading. Quiet time. Reflection. Prepared me for today.
I knew this could go either way. Obviously I would get the job or I wouldn’t. I could foresee God using either scenario.
The ‘Got It’ version would have been a season back in corporate America. By the world’s standards, this should be the no-brainer option. A decent salary, regular hours, benefits package, a philanthropic company…
The ‘No Go’ version would be another leap of faith. Everything about this scenario puts me in a vulnerable position that would cause most people to fret and freak out. However, this is the version that brought me the most peace. I could have kept the interview quiet, but I had told people. My pride was telling me to keep it quiet in case it didn’t pan out. My gut told me to be transparent to allow people to see God standing behind me.
David and I had a rare chance to meet for lunch today. We had a heart-to-heart talk about both scenarios. At the end of our conversation, it came on my heart that this was probably going to go the way of faith. A testimony.
I spent the next couple hours listening to inspirational songs. I cranked them loud in my earbuds so I could sing at the top of my lungs without hearing my own voice. I danced around the house as I accomplished a few tasks. By the time I was heading out the door to collect my daughter from school, I felt my soul was prepared to accept what was coming. I had no clue an HR rep was composing a “were sorry…” message to me while I had the vision of my first glimpse of the ocean; the impression I’m describing in my writing from two years ago.
Third Day, Lead us Back is a favorite on my playlist. As I was locking the front door and having the vision above, the words below were being sung to my soul.
Offering | Third Day
“Magnificent Holy Father
I stand in awe of all I see
Of all the things You have created
But still You choose to think of me
Who am I that You should suffer
Your very life to set me free
The only thing that I can give You
Is the life You gave to me”
I envisioned my tiny life form, set at the feet of an enormous God. To the world, leaving your life to the mercy of an invisible being is inconceivable. Yet He isn’t invisible to me. He spent the past three days proving to me He is fully aware of me. He knows what is on my heart. He intends to use me, all of me. As an employee of a huge corporation, I am merely a statistic. To God, I am His child. Working for Him is “divine nepotism”; a boss who is also my deliverer. Wow!
There is no interview process. Well, there is an exit interview. He is our maker, our creator. We get to come on board as we are. He will train us as we work. He knows the work we are gifted to do best. His retirement plan is eternity. His door is always open. His insurance plan is free– bought and paid for by with the resurrected life of His only Son. He called me; I didn’t apply. I answered.
If this story has been intriguing or encouraging, I hope you’ll follow my blog to read more. I’ll have some time to write and I have oodles of ideas swimming about my noggin. While you’re waiting for the next entry, click on the song links sprinkled throughout my Random Musing. Sing loud and proud… dance around indignantly… it messes with those who have no faith and makes them curious. The angels in heaven are delighted and amused when we dance and sing.
If you’re going to walk on water, you have to get out of the boat!
With much love,
“And I will rise when He calls my name. No more sorrow.”
I Will Rise | Chris Tomlin
These words were sung to me as I wrote to you tonight.
These lyrics have been one of my fight songs since July 2014:
“Lay your head down tonight
Take a rest from the fight
Don’t try to figure it out
Just listen to what I’m whispering to your heart
‘Cause I know this is not
Anything like you thought
The story of your life was gonna be
And it feels like the end has started closing in on you
But it’s just not true
There’s so much of the story that’s still yet to unfold
And this is going to be a glorious unfolding
Just you wait and see and you will be amazed
You’ve just got to believe the story is so far from over
So hold on to every promise God has made to us
And watch this glorious unfolding
God’s plan from the start
For this world and your heart
Has been to show His glory and His grace
Forever revealing the depth and the beauty of
His unfailing Love
And the story has only begun”